I was having a crush on him but didn’t know how to act around him. So instead of being friendly or smiling at him, I decided to coil into myself whenever he was around. I was looking forward to the day he would approach me or even say hi to me, but it never happened.
Then I heard he was getting married. I was devastated. I didn’t know you could have heartbreak over someone you never dated. I stayed up all night thinking about what would have happened if I were the one he was getting married to.
After his wedding, I sent him a message congratulating him and he replied immediately, telling me he didn’t know I had his number. I also told him I didn’t know he had my number because we never spoke. We talked that day for a while and when he returned to work, he started talking freely with me.
These days he gives me a ride when we close from work. When he’s ready and I’m not, he waits for me and sometimes drives me right to my gate. Because of this proximity I have with him these days, I don’t know how to heal from the crush. Yes, he’s married but my heart still wants him so badly, and it hurts.
When he stops and we sit for a while in his car, I see desire in his eyes, like he wants to make a move on me but isn’t sure about my reaction, so he stops. I also don’t want to be the one to initiate it and I even want a way to stop it, but he drives me home, something that benefits me a lot.
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I want to tell him how I truly feel about him and also tell him that because of that, I can’t continue allowing him to drive me home or letting us be this close to each other. I want to allow myself to be vulnerable with him to see if that will bring us to a place where all this will end. I’m asking if that is a good idea because I don’t want it to backfire on me. If it does, I will be the miserable one here because he’s married.
Please tell me what to do.